My 48th birthday was this past weekend and I have been trying to think of what to write that signifies where I think I am in my life now. I have been having a really hard time trying to articulate that into words.
Yesterday, my neighbor at my new studio told me to come outside and I was able to catch this video.
For those of you that don't know, that was my old store.
Being able to watch as my sanctuary came down was pretty cathartic.
Over the past month with the Equinox, the new moons and it being the end and beginning of a cycle, it all clicked for me as I watched this building come tumbling down. Everything leads to letting the past go and moving on to the future. Seeing this building come down was like a gift. Even though I love my new studio, every time I pulled right into my new parking lot, I always looked to the left at my old space. Every time I pulled out at the end of the day, I looked straight at my old place. It was just always there as a reminder, not a memory.
Lately I have been getting readings that are about letting go of the past and the beginning of a new cycle. Learning and letting go of old habits and thinking about things from a different perspective.
The building may have been torn down and not set on fire like the Phoenix but I choose to see it as the same thing. Not seeing that place coming and going everyday is a chance for me to truly leave the past behind.
The definition of Sanctum, is "an inviolably private place, free from desecration and destruction". Given that this building was torn down so easily, I now see it was never about the building, but about what I built.
I feel like I am truly ready for the next phase to take flight.
✅ letting go